How Much Can Change In A Year?.....A Lot, That's How Much.

So, it's Tuesday, February the 8th, and I'm sitting here in the cafeteria, really needing to do some studying for my Methods of Teaching Secondary School Music test tomorrow, or perhaps study for my OT Lit test tomorrow, but since I don't have another class until 3, I figure it can wait just a little bit. :P

This post won't really be all that much about my college life so far or anything of that sort.

Today is a big step for me. It is an anniversary of an event in my life that I don't think I'll ever forget. It's the one year anniversary of the day I thought that my heart had died. I had to cut ties from someone that I thought that I "loved", even though I was blind to see the truth. On that day, after ending it all, I wept.

I wept and wept and thought that my heart could never be put back together again. Everything that I thought was real was a lie, and my life seemed to be torn apart...all by one guy that I fell for that said that he would never do anything to hurt me....

...that said he would never leave me...

...that said he would never make me cry.

But, looking over the past year, so much has changed, even though last year I thought that my world was falling apart. I've learned so much about what really matters, about the characteristics that a true man should really have, and that I should guard my heart until the time comes that I find someone right for me.

I never thought that I could trust guys again. For a while, I didn't think I could, and I honestly didn't want to out of fear of being hurt again. But, (and this is where college comes into play), I have met SO MANY amazing men here at Bryan that have completely changed my mind about guys. By having amazing guy friends like Josh, Tim (my big brother), Adam, Matt, Chris, and Sean (just to name a few), they (without knowing it probably) help me see what really is important in a guy. What I should be looking for. The qualities of a godly man. They have really shown me that not all guys are horrible. That guys really can care about people, even me. And that is an amazing thing to think about. Knowing that some guy out there will end up caring so much about me that he would want to spend the rest of his life with me is a pretty big deal to me.

I can't wait for my happily ever after. ^_^

Well, I think that's about it for right now. I will not let the memory of today ruin the day that I'm having so far. I will enjoy today, hang out with some wonderful friends, and study my butt off for my tests tomorrow. Have a great February the 8th everyone!

~Katherine Grace~